Recently, I’ve dipped into my external hard drive full of photos, writings, schoolwork from college, etc.. I found this writing project from my senior year in college. And I’m happy to say that two years free from university, I’m still living true to the ideologies that I displayed in my worldview statement then.
Today, I am young. So much is teetering on the edge of revealing itself to me, and yet I only softly seek these explanations. With roots in a slightly sheltered small town, filled with only spurts of excitement to give me a taste of the world, allowing me to be aware but still careful of its offerings as well as its traps, I have embraced the simplicity of a minimalist lifestyle. Every one of us though has a wildness in us. The wild in me has tip toed to the edge of fiery pits, danced around them, enjoyed the warmth and the glow, but always the wild returns safely to greet the next day without a mark of evidence of the night before. Curiosity shapes my perceptions while restrain helps to keep my mind pure and balanced. Constantly though I will search for a reason as to why I should do anything but dance and learn and create.
The wildness will always run through me but with gradual reformations recognizing responsibilities to my fellow beings and our environment. This personally formulated balance bridges the gap between frivolous passion and that which I might refer to as the ‘real world’ convictions. My purpose is to continuously bridge that gap––to be responsible, to educate, to seek out deeper truths, to be open minded and to pay attention to the youthful, the light hearted, and even the weak to maintain a well rounded perception.
I feel a certain level of obligation, one that has tugged at me for years, and is finally showing its face––an obligation to reprove the ability of humans to act as one with nature rather than as the master of it through my own lifestyle and skills. Balance has been the single most consistent concept in the development of my life philosophies. A balance of work and play, exploration and contentedness, love and lust, dance and stillness, confidence and submission, conversation and silence, all things that mesh and influence the human that I am. This balance of my personality and experiences are reflected in my perception of the environment. I don’t wish to think hard on the long term details, but ultimately I seek to sustain myself and if applicable, my family. For now though, I am wild and wandering, happy to be here even with just me.